I need to come up with an exercise plan. It needs to be something I can do when it's raining o too hot. So hmm I like to walk, but that won't work real well if it's too hot. It is nice to walk in the early morning so I suppose that is an option. Night is nice too but I can't walk alone in the dark, sidewalks are too messed up and with my hearing loss roadways aren't a good plan.
I like the pool and that is the easiest place to workout for me, that works for mornings. afternoons/evenings either rain comes in and/or families and that isn't ok for me lol (yep I'm getting old) now that I'm giving it some thought, I seriously need to try to work pool time in.
I have a couple online workouts that I like and that are productive but you have to keep rewinding them to get enough time in...hey freebies lol.
So I guess I know some things to do and I just need to figure out a good routine that I can stick with! Isn't that the most important part of exercising? to find a routine and stick with it?
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
Pros and Cons of FAT ME!
ok so here goes lets see where my mind is at:
so what are the Pros of Fat Me? (what's in it for staying fat)
I don't have to buy new clothes.
I can hide behind baggy clothes
I eat what I want when I want and the amount I want!
Many love me but no one wants a permanent because I am fat not because something is wrong with me.
Cons of Fat Me? (things that can be made better with weight loss)
Health
double chin
wing arms
cellulite
accepting that my choices as in: bad choices, are why I'm not in a permanent relationship not weight.
being able to say I'm alone by CHOICE and it being believable! (no one whispering sure see how BIG she is)
get to buy new clothes that I love ;)
can be proud to have a good/great figure, no more hiding.
I am sure I can add to these, and some are a general statement but have a deeper basis that I don't care to publish at this stage. I looked into the sleeve (weight loss surgery) because it seemed the easy way and it's more permanent, where diet and exercise is a lifetime commitment. But seriously I do NOT want another operation and recovery that is not fun, not even remotely acceptable to me. I need to have my teeth worked on and soon and that is the only operation I am willing to suffer through.
So what do I know about "diet" well I know that it has to be a lifetime commitment, so it should be a life choice diet not a until weight loss goal is met diet. Healthy choices you will follow for life, and make them happy choices learn to season etc. to be yummy. Accepting that there are holidays, birthdays and other occasions that will require you to "cheat" or more exactly eat not so healthy choices once in awhile, these are just facts of life and you should not beat yourself up over them or push yourself.
I guess the bottom line is, I have gotten use to making bad choices, it is so much easier to hit the fast food than to go home and cook, sometimes time is short or you're tired or you don't want to wait while it cooks. OK so not all foods at fast food places are BAD so I've gotten use to making the bad choices and that is something I have to break! I have to re-train myself to be smart, to love me enough to make the best choices! The ball is in my court.
so what are the Pros of Fat Me? (what's in it for staying fat)
I don't have to buy new clothes.
I can hide behind baggy clothes
I eat what I want when I want and the amount I want!
Many love me but no one wants a permanent because I am fat not because something is wrong with me.
Cons of Fat Me? (things that can be made better with weight loss)
Health
- diabetes
- heart works way too hard
- varicose veins
double chin
wing arms
cellulite
accepting that my choices as in: bad choices, are why I'm not in a permanent relationship not weight.
being able to say I'm alone by CHOICE and it being believable! (no one whispering sure see how BIG she is)
get to buy new clothes that I love ;)
can be proud to have a good/great figure, no more hiding.
I am sure I can add to these, and some are a general statement but have a deeper basis that I don't care to publish at this stage. I looked into the sleeve (weight loss surgery) because it seemed the easy way and it's more permanent, where diet and exercise is a lifetime commitment. But seriously I do NOT want another operation and recovery that is not fun, not even remotely acceptable to me. I need to have my teeth worked on and soon and that is the only operation I am willing to suffer through.
So what do I know about "diet" well I know that it has to be a lifetime commitment, so it should be a life choice diet not a until weight loss goal is met diet. Healthy choices you will follow for life, and make them happy choices learn to season etc. to be yummy. Accepting that there are holidays, birthdays and other occasions that will require you to "cheat" or more exactly eat not so healthy choices once in awhile, these are just facts of life and you should not beat yourself up over them or push yourself.
I guess the bottom line is, I have gotten use to making bad choices, it is so much easier to hit the fast food than to go home and cook, sometimes time is short or you're tired or you don't want to wait while it cooks. OK so not all foods at fast food places are BAD so I've gotten use to making the bad choices and that is something I have to break! I have to re-train myself to be smart, to love me enough to make the best choices! The ball is in my court.
Shame on me!
So here I go, saw my diabetes (and primary care) Dr. last evening and he is not happy with me, ok that makes two of us! I gained 4 lbs., the only good news about that is I didn't gain everything I'd loss back!
I messed up and stopped walking because I got sick and because of my shin splints in my bad leg. Then I chose to eat all the wrong foods, I can say it was because I got sick and then because I had house guests but both are just excuses!
Dr. D said that I have proven I know what it takes to lose weight, because I have proved it recently. He said he can't fix or cure fat which I guess is true (not without surgery) but I have the power, knowledge to fix or cure my fat! I pointed out that he can't cure/fix stupid either and that is what happened I got stuck on stupid, and I CAN fix that too!
So now the big question, why do I sabotage myself? Am I afraid to be thin? do I use the excuse that no one wants to have a life with me because I'm fat and I'm afraid that if I'm not fat I'll have to accept just not being wanted? I really need to look within and be honest with myself. I think I have actually become fine with being single at this stage of my life so the fat/thin deal isn't a serious issue any longer. Maybe the journey is hard and a long, lonely one? Maybe there is more to it...but I need to set my mind and then just avoid those issues that hurt me or set my mind against being sabotaged by myself or others.
Well I've pulled myself up by the bootstraps once again and I will lose the 4 lbs. I gained and continue on my road to better and smaller me. I think I need to make a list of the positives and the negatives of my weight and see if that motivates me more.
I messed up and stopped walking because I got sick and because of my shin splints in my bad leg. Then I chose to eat all the wrong foods, I can say it was because I got sick and then because I had house guests but both are just excuses!
Dr. D said that I have proven I know what it takes to lose weight, because I have proved it recently. He said he can't fix or cure fat which I guess is true (not without surgery) but I have the power, knowledge to fix or cure my fat! I pointed out that he can't cure/fix stupid either and that is what happened I got stuck on stupid, and I CAN fix that too!
So now the big question, why do I sabotage myself? Am I afraid to be thin? do I use the excuse that no one wants to have a life with me because I'm fat and I'm afraid that if I'm not fat I'll have to accept just not being wanted? I really need to look within and be honest with myself. I think I have actually become fine with being single at this stage of my life so the fat/thin deal isn't a serious issue any longer. Maybe the journey is hard and a long, lonely one? Maybe there is more to it...but I need to set my mind and then just avoid those issues that hurt me or set my mind against being sabotaged by myself or others.
Well I've pulled myself up by the bootstraps once again and I will lose the 4 lbs. I gained and continue on my road to better and smaller me. I think I need to make a list of the positives and the negatives of my weight and see if that motivates me more.
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