First Day Back

Well yesterday was my first day back to school for Fall semester and it went ok EXCEPT didn't take the time to make sure I ate all my dinner but was super proud of myself for not vending a candy bar!

That said I did go through Checkers on my way home and got a popcorn chicken box this comes with Fries. did I mention greasy fries? today I spent most of my time in the bathroom and feeling real bad. I had a ton of homework plus I needed to set up a new program for work and try to learn how to use it and all the time feeling real icky.

 Did I learn a lesson? YES!!! I have been very good and my body has adjusted to this healthier style and I need to stay with it or pay the price.

Over ate :(

I think I over ate yesterday, not by much but that is not the point I need to stay on track! Kim bought Everything French Bread to have with dinner and damn I love bread! It is one of my top bad choices in life! Did I eat too much of it? no but I did have seconds and that was not the way I should have handled it.  This is a life diet I'm on and I need to keep the changes and my self control in the front of my mind!

I'm stressing over school starting today, which is no excuse to make wrong choices, but stress always has and always play a part in my bad habits... confort food which is BS for me because it's... blindness foods and I need to train my mind to think of certain items that way. Food should taste good nothing wrong with that but food is fuel.

I really feel lonely, alone in life and that is so sad...

End of Week 5....

Well end of another week of this life change.  I changed my diet to make it more of what should be a normal meal plan for my life. I am still keeping less calories that just has to be and when I get to goal it actually might be a normal calorie level for my short self...hmmm I'll check into that! So no I did not do as well as I'd hope BUT better than all zero's.

Weight is down 1 lb.. total 12 lbs gone

Bust stayed same but total is 4" down
Waist stayed the same but total is 4" down
Hips went down 1/2" for a total of 7 1/2" down :)
Arms went down 1/2" for a total of 1" down :)

total inches lost 16 1/2 not bad..

School starts this week so we shall see how that goes...

checked and yes about the same calories for goal...cool lol

Little worries and a lot of babbling

I worry, I changed my diet to add a salad and meat for my dinners...it's great BUT I worry so very much about the chewing...yep chomp chomp... my soups were to drink, I stuck them in my blender and made them liquid in order to drink them.  I was very afraid if I tried to allot myself food I could chew I would say well damn this hamburger has the same calories so why not? and that would lead me back to bad choices.

I am on week 5 now, during the first 4 weeks I did not have a piece of bread, a cracker, a potato or pasta or rice... none of it! I have limited my soda pop to almost none - not easy for a 2 liter a day drinker! I can honestly say I had 2 drive thur soda's, 4 cans and 1 - 2 liter in all this time!

I'm doing ok so far, but HELLO it's only been Sun, Mon and today! lol I found out how healthy the rice (brown) was that I was making for Kim that I had my little serving too with my single serving of tilapia and I had my salad, which I didn't finish so I had it for my later snack (diabetic snack needed)

I have to lose the weight to save my sight - period! I have to learn to eat this new way not having certain foods except once in a very limited while because if the weight came back so would the loss of vision issue.

I guess right now it's all very hard, I'm teaching myself about choices and to make the right ones in nutrition/calories and I'm trying to add in the exercising and increase it while trying not to hurt my shoulder or legs ok or back heck old bones lol my main goal is get the weight off as fast as I can in a healthy way but fast, my sight is having major issues. at my rate of loss I think I have about 3 more months to get to first goal and first goal should make my vision good.

It sure as hell was easy to gain this weight! Why can't it be as easy to take it off?

Small Changes

After giving it a lot of thought today, I went to market and picked up some new foods for my diet. I've been having protein shakes and low calorie homemade soups and I still intend to but I've decided to add a salad with a protein (egg, tuna, chicken) to each days dinner menu at least for a week or two and see how things go doing that.

Tues and Thurs are about to become very full for me classes from 12:30 til 8:30pm. I'll be able to take a nice healthy salad for my dinner hour 4 to 5:30 but I don't think I'll be able to add a workout into those days so I need to get a routine going for my workouts that will keep me on track all the rest of the week! I'd think it shouldn't be hard...

End of Week 4 and not happy :(

Well it's the end of my 4th week of this hard journey! I am ok with my progress but not overjoyed I had expected to be at a better weight by now but I've been ok with the inches lost and even the weight down  Today I have lost another 2 lbs which is better then none but less than my other 3 weeks and I lost no inches and that is way bad...

weight loss: 2 lbs total lbs lost: 11
inches lost: 0 total inches lost: 15 1/2

I have not been exercising enough I hurt my shoulder but that is no excuse I need to get back to doing this.

Helpful Places

I was hunting around for information and found this about how simple cuts can help you lose weight without really working hard at it.... just found some of it helpful, things I hadn't thought about trying or doing. Anyway I thought I'd share it and maybe it will help someone else who happens on my blog.
http://health.yahoo.net/articles/weight-loss/photos/25-ways-cut-500-calories-day#0