Put myself in crisis... woke up about an hour ago, not sure what woke me but my face was horribly swollen, gained over 5 lbs.... too much sodium! that is something most do not know about my many struggles in this new body made by knives cutting me open, slicing into my brain and my heart and someone else deciding what parts to throw away, how best to rewire me.
Limitations to what I can eat is one, the heart doc warned me that dieting can be hard because of the sodium issue, ironically my only diet restriction! the pain in my hands, feet, head that I have learned (almost) to live with but that do affect my ability to exercise. the missing memories that strain my brain all the time trying to recapture, hell some are in a haze mat bag gone forever but my brain keeps trying or maybe it's my heart. The insults about my face, rejection from fear of loving someone, investing your heart in someone who could easily die tomorrow and so much more.... maybe I'm just whining because I feel so foolish for not watching the sodium intake better and I really need to quit whining since cheese is not on my diet!
OK time to go pace some more and drink more water, maybe make some green tea to help relieve some of this fluid so I can get some rest.
#1 battle with any new diet is just balancing. This is true with anyone who is dieting. Some of us it's our sodium for others it's sugar. Now you know. What's nice about sodium is that typically it's water weight - easy on, easy off. Flush it out!!!
ReplyDeletethanks! yes I have been took almost 2 days but I seem to have it under control and as I told via text I am reading labels and making my own when I can!
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