It seems like I have had to climb mountains these last 7.5 yrs, no-one understands how painful it has been in all areas. Sometimes it has felt like I was on level ground, other times like I was climbing Mt. Everest....most of the time on rolling hills, not always easy but never super bad. I think I will have to attack all the emotional on this in order to get well completely inside but it will be another day.

Now I face medical issues that should be fairly simple to handle BUT without medical coverage and no real county clinic's it has become a life threat. LOL this is one issue I try to talk politic's with my son-in-law over, I totally respect his choices but I need to know what the plan is of those choices when it comes to medical coverage for the poor/low income like me? I simply cannot afford insurance that cost as much as rent each month.

So one thing I can do to fix or at the very least help me not lose parts or go blind is to lose some of this wt. ideally I could lose 100 lbs and be Ms. Perfect now that would be nice, but that is not a realistic goal for a number of reasons. 80 lbs down would put me in a great shape so I'd like to make that a goal, but for real I need to lose 40 lbs to help my health... so I guess I will set a goal of mim. 40 lbs and main target to lose 80 total. So on Sunday I am going to start a diet with 40 down as the goal, sure hope I can make it work right.